Monk Monday, you find me without words. You find me weighed down. You find me questioning why people who love God can be so cruel in His name. You find me wondering why we don’t give one another the freedom to explore faith, and instead try to guide one another along a path that we know not of ourselves. You find me pleading for answers, and ending up with more questions. You find me concerned for the darkness, and unsure of how to find the light or how to be light.
Thomas Merton, I could sit at the feet of your musings for hours, and if you wouldn’t mind, I’m going to borrow your prayer today. At least, I assume it is a prayer; I’m making it mine.
“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean I am actually doing so.
But I believe the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
– Thoughts in Solitude
How do you deal with uncertainty in your life? What questions are you asking God today?